Hmm . . . where to start. It's been a while I guess. Right now my life is the most confused its ever been, when it should be the least confused its ever been. I'm not quite sure how to sort everything all out, and I'm not certain how I think or feel about anything. I might be looking into going to school to get state certified to be a hair stylist ( I know what a goal) but it's something I see myself being good at and I'm almost positive I would enjoy doing it. That and it would be nice to be my own boss and make my own hours. I put panels in my roomates hair and they turned out really well, and to be honest that was the one thing I was most scared about doing if I ever continued to pursue career/dream option.
Have you ever been interested in doing so many different things, that you just can't settle on one long enough or hard enough to see it all the way through, because you're pretty sure you would be happy doing almost any of them? Thats how I am, but at least I ruled one option out, I actually liked doing it but I knew when I chose it that I wouldn't be able to have a life, and that was ok with me then, I was trying to escape from other aspects of my life. It eventually wasn't ok with me, when I was ready to have a life again and it wasn't really possible.
I used to have a really good friend who I loved more than anything in this world, he would just let me be me, even if I was a little crazed sometimes, he even loved me when I was a little nuts, and would let me ramble on and on about the random thoughts that would come into my head. It was great because it helped me figure things out. Though sometimes he would kinda tune me out he would always listen when it was important. I miss him . . .
In a month or two I'm sure my life will fall back into some sort of sanity, hopefully sooner. There's a lot I have to figure out in the meantime, its sucks when time is something you need to help you figure things out, but sometimes you can't figure things out without it, and you just have to live life to the fullest and take it one day at a time. Eventually things work themselves out, and sometimes they need help along the way . . .
